Am I, a bad person? An ode to change.

I drift in just a stereotypically trouble girl aspect. I don’t see the appeal of a best friend nor do I wish to have one. My own company at times is too much for be. I am independent among the height of most things, independent and self-driven. I am independent, nomadic but yet attached to a small few.

I don’t want to be your bff, I honestly do not care enough to run through the annoyance of small talk. The small talk itself is you trying to make me become someone I am simply not. And that is this close intertwined sister like figure, so close it hurts. That’s not me, it never will be.

I dislike your need to bring me further in, it’s only my annoyance my guilty annoyance fester inside me. Why, am I so guilty. I know it’s me been moody making me not soo much into your chats make like my fluctuating desire for coffee, my need and will power to withstand this chit chat slowly fades deeper. I feel myself find the idea of socializing with someone whom once was a close friend, ( here’s that word again ) guilty.

But, I have changed. I have not grown up, to say the least. But, I have changed. I have become selfish, but I had to. I have expanded out of this dull little shell, I don’t want to hold your hand. I honestly have better things to do. For me, you may need to change, but then I will change again. Like I always do. I transform into another shade of myself for a year or two, then transform again. And that is just me, you can’t keep up with these waves. The idea is to not.

It’s the guilt of me knowing what I am doing that’s the selfish part, I need to be alone. I need to be with open minded independent people. I don’t want to live the same lives as it was before. The dynamics are shifted much like life does, and now we are in different tides crossing the ocean and that’s ok. They may cross again, they may not.

I hate to use the line, it’s not you, it’s me. But, that’s the truth. I am in a different place are your habitual in nature and that’s the way it is.

Like ships on the open sea, we may cross paths one day.

 

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and an ode to possible ending a friendship

 

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Passion Fruit without passion

The quarter life crisis has been proven to be an actual thing.This sense of losing , lonesome feelings as the tides of adulthood pull you into the glowing depth of boredom. This melodic nature of the easy, the comfortable way of life…result in utter boredom is the death of the creative root of passion.

Where has my passion gone? Who took it? Did I take it ? Did I leave it somewhere? Do I even want it bacK? Or the real question am I just lazy?

Not so long ago I did, in fact, have what I thought to be, passion. But, much like the every glazing approach of life has stripped it away from me. Like the leafs fall in the autumn air that lacks in South East Queensland ( Autumn is not a thing).

I used to have this focused energy and exact idea of what I wanted to be….but, now it was gone. I wanted to somehow collude the worlds of my love affair of fine leather goods ( and goods in general), with the world of advertising. In my deluded mind, I would spend my days dressed in Prozner and Chole while coming up with million dollar idea. Strange I know….oh the hope.

Little did I fail to grasp my dramatically terrible English skills that I have been reminded of since my early schooling. The borderline dyslexic copywriter is never really going to take off or sell well. 

This mindset it way I sit here, confused oh so very confused and terrified that I will work in a bland cubical and spend my days looking spreadsheets.

A passionfruit without passion is just a fruit and even then that’s not that amazing. 

Kind regards, the passionless passion fruit that now tastes bland and dull  

The basic

Chelsea boot,

The plain, the simple, the easy.

I have currently been travelling around Europe and swore by my beloved Asos Chelsea boots with oxford detailing. But, sadly…..they did not withstand the constant walking around, resulting in retirement.

This post is an ode to these beautiful boots that have inspired me to possible purchases more expensive ones in the future ( several shopping carts on several online stores have been filled).  I am possibly in the near future investing in a basic staple of the R&M Williams boot, but don’t want to look like a farmer or we could go big with a really quality purchases. WHO KNOWS, more online shopping to progress.

However, I am still overcoming wearing Chelsea boots with shorts, as they make anyone on the smaller side legs look slightly larger. That been said when paired with denim the Chelsea will elongate your legs.

I will never forget the first time I wore head to toe black with them, i.e. black skinny jeans ( the Chelsea boots best friend ) and black tee. Someone told me I looked like I was in a band, lame I know….but it made me  feel great.

You will be missed and I will always love you.

 

 

Suede all Mighty

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Suede you magical leather. So lush and so delicate. The softer sister to leather. Worn by cool rockers and retro Queens. Now your on our door step telling us its time. Its suede time !

I keep having the reoccurring dream. In it , I am wearing the most devein hot pants ever seen in the history or not just hot pants but, pants. They are like most hot pants , amazing , but high waisted . But the hot pants of my dreams have ironically a dream like attitude for they are suede. But !!! it gets better not only are this gems a tan suede , but they are covered in fringes. And I wear this marvels of man kind with pride and a cashmere turtle neck , of course. I pretend I am a brown haired Stevie Nicks. And just have an all around wonderful time.

Now, dreams in some cultures are seen as proficies. And , it was to my pure joy , when I discovered and welcomed with wide open arm this glories trend of suede. When one is covered in suede you can be a hard core rocker or a peace love hippy , you can pick both if that your cup of tea.

So when your bring and phasing the suede , its all about picking the pieces that are you .You have to speak to the suede d, listen to it love it and it will in turn love you and let you land a hipster rocker with  Anna bun and full beard  Or me , its the mini and due to my obsession as reflected in my dream , anything with fringes. Why, have you ever danced in a fringed skirt, well let me tell you cause your clearly deprived of a truly wonderful moment , its amazing and you too look amazing more than normal.And ! they are a great time kill.

You could take the easy road to suede down aha boot route , but don’t be boring , pick a blouse, like the one from Zara here. If you want to slowly work into the club try this new topshop denim andudede finishing set, its to die for .You can also for our my experienced and devoted companies  do suede on suede, I myself can’t wait to do this, but need to source the right collection of suede. Never doubt seeded , that’s what I love about it. The softness of the fabrics and the way its drapes the body, I personal would love to see it come over to evening wear, I would buy it, I hope Chloe brings some out. ! Please Chloe please !

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Maybe I’m Kanye

There are many times within a normal day what would “Kanye do?” Or “what would Kanye wear” . Of course she would wear cashmere.

Than one day it dawned on me I am in fact kind of Kanye. Firstly, I love myself ! Typical Kanye trait. I aspired to justices in the world, so too does Kanye , but most of all I too am a realist.

I am a realistic individual. I am not 100% sure when the tables turned from been a classic optimistic person , whom one would describe as “bubbly”. To a realised , I person I am today. Although, I wear my realism flag with pride like Kanye does. Like Kanye, I understand certain things in life. That things ain’t easy , thanks yeezie. ( see what I did there ). I get that you have to work hard and 99% your going to be knocked down or grown. But  realist just have a more truthful perception on the world. My mainly is due to dating. Optimistic people you see create ideals for people, that everyone will be happy and find ‘the one’, they will tell their friends that the guys going to message him , and well all know he won’t. For me personal oprimitistc people are the biggest liars. That’s why the honest ‘realist’ is the way to be . I get that he isn’t going to call and I know there isn’t a one . I know there isn’t a lot of things and its sad when it dawns on your , but your get over it.

Life as a realist is very fun.I have a deep spiritually  bond with Kanye and understand the likes  Seinfeld.I continue  to be sarcastic to an extent when I myself am unsure when I am joking or not. But my realised ways have taught me to be myself and world this is who I am so you better deal with it.

Kanye West

Realist  are such a happy bunch of people

Back to the Future

Zara you little darling , you time traveling black hole, my one true love , my husband , my all , my everything. I don’t think you guys actually understand it , but Zara is a time traveling machine. Want to look like Marisa Brady ??? Well who doesn’t come one , why be a Jan when you can be Marisa and don’t say you don’t know who she is. Zara has this amazing quality of making me think I am in fact part of the Bardy bunch expect I am not blonde ( minor issues , I can fix that, Pantene dahhh)

Want to feel like your a 70s groupies, but in fact your too in love with air con and Intsagram …don’t sweat it literally. Zara has a the right mini skirts to  set you on a path of weed infused fun. Why be hipster when you can actually just be a 70s groupie, guys come one its so much better.

Finial , let’s just recap the most beautiful thing ever ! the new shoe , gone are the days of those ugly things that people wear and back to the dainty way off life. Thank you my husband…. thank you , dinners on the table

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The Vow

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I know I have vanished into the unknown world of the ‘inter web’ and I am deeply sorry. I have committed a sin almost as bad as mixing my metals….. but than again that can sometimes work. Anyway, its almost a new month and I have trailed some aspect of the globe maybe like 0.0000000009% of it. Its fair to say I have seen some stuff and half and I feel like I must share that with you all. So I promise to write more and to never by a poloy blend sweater that is more than $80. Cause , let’s me honest that’s just rude

 

Gardening the Chanel way

Chanel will never fail with endless transformations each season. This spring/summer couture provides us with of what Karl must wear on Sunday afternoon slipping lemonade taming roses. It was a truly dream like collection so soft and whimsical , wit light flowing fabric. However, like Dior primary colours are coming in strong this season and we expect many more to come, taking nod to the colours of many bloggers childhoods. There was something I just adored about the use of just strong blue tones, soft innocent blush  and  more harsh reds that work  in such harming with the normal staple black.

Although with many low wasit skirts , bearing full bottom belly does this mean goodbye to my beloved high waisted piece. Please be kind Karl we don’t have Gisele body

Good work Karl and I must say I love your garden, his very nice he can fix my garden any day.

Here are some of my most adored looks below, all images are sourced from vogue uk.

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The GoGo Girls of Dior

Its Couture week everyone and my favourite Raf has done it again , he will successful break by budget , as I hunt to find a pair of orange high kneed boots. Honestly with his Spring/Summer 2015 Couture collection, what’s not to love the use of bold 60/70s inspired pallet shows the theme of stepping back into the time of Twig and I am ready for it. I do love my organs and my green !

He still keep the crisp clean shapes that are ironically Dior ! Honestly its hard to pick a favourite ! The tight dropped waist silhouette still seems to be a strong mark and I am assuming will be become very popular soon!

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